I have been beginning to question why this is happening to me. Why I am the one with this struggle lately? What am I to learn? I feel like a whiny baby and grumpy garbage lettuce. I need to get my priorities straight!!
I have suffered migraines most of my life along with these focal seizures. There are times I have a headache coming on and it goes to a full blown out migraine. I then sometimes go off in to this “lala land”. Meaning I am spacing out and focalized on nothing but what is right in front of me. If I am on the computer, reading a book, in a class, at church, or driving. This is NOT good at all! It is unsafe for me as well as others around me. I have had many falls in regards to this over the last few years. 2014 I had 5-6 concussions, 2015 I had 2 concussions which included a bad accident with injury, and 2016 I had two falls with NO head injuries!! But one did include a seizure immediately following. My memory was so bad I did not recall my College Algebra for an exam and failed it. I have been a busy visitor to the doctor, neurologist, labs, testing, and you name it in regards to this over many years. I have taken many different medications and tried many home remedies. Recently I finally went to my Internist and she ordered the longest MRI for my brain. YES, something is in there! I have had a cyst for many years on my left temporal lope. What was finally identified was the name and what it is causing on my left temporal lope. It is called arachnoid cyst and with that knowledge we looked it up via National Institute for Health.
I found their site rather informing and believable. I said to myself, “It all makes sense now.” I have been fighting these signs and symptoms for many years! So, finally a diagnosis as to what is causing the interruption to my daily life. Now to figure out how to manage this pain and discomfort better. I do hope and pray that someone listens to me for once about this unusual disruption to my life and HELP me figure this out. I feel as though I have been climbing a mountain for many years and will never see the top. I do not need the devil’s discouragement I need God’s love and understanding and that’s what I have.
I just want this to work out so I am truly grateful and blessed to get an appointment with Rush University on December 29th. I need to learn once again this thing called, patience. I do realize and know that there are so many others out there worse than myself. I just need to put my life back into perspective and sometimes writing it out helps me.
I would like to thank all of you who have liked my blogs and my page as well. Thank you for your blogs to help me in my life’s journey.